Realization

For awhile now I have ignored the fact that I'm not living my life to the fullest. Since my move in January to the cities I have spent my time alone and haven't tried to meet anyone. I spend my time working, shopping, on the computer, traveling, or sleeping.

I'm a work-a-holic to the point where I will bring my work home with me even after working a 7 hour day. I put everything into my job but I'm still not satisfied with my performance. I was hired to do the office work at a retail store and after being there for more than 90 days I still feel unappreciated.

There are five managers at the store and I'm right under them. The managers range in age from 30 to 50's and they are the most unprofessional, messy, and irresponsible people I have meet in a long time. Even though I'm only 20 I'm mature for my age and I know how to be professional and I'm responsible but having to practically watch over adults who are 10 to 30 years older truly baffles me. How difficult is it to remember to do your job when you do it every single day?

Not only are the irresponsible but they are extremely unprofessional. They will have their cell phones on them and will answer the phone during working hours. Get off your phone and do your job and while you're are at set a good example for your employees.

Lastly, these people are messy people and when I first started working I was amazed at how dirty and unorganized the office was. I felt overwhelmed and had no idea where to start. By now I have organized and clean but every morning when I come into work the office is messy again and I spend my mornings cleaning it so I can have a clean working environment.

As I said earlier I feel unappreciated because first of all each month the managers nominate about 5 people for Star Awards. Since I've been there I haven't been nominated, but some mangers employees have. Its not that I need attention I would just like to be appreciated for the work I do. I'm not sure what they base the criteria off of but the nominees are people who have horrible attendance and the mangers are nominated but they seem to always make a lot of mistakes and who is helping them along the way?...ME! I've had perfect attendance so far and I usually stay two hours later than my scheduled shift because I'm getting involved in new projects such as having games for employees to motivate them. Recently I created a BINGO game for the employees where the cards would have tasks and they would have to complete them. I hand wrote 35 cards and personalized them for each person. The other day I posted the cards to start the game and the complaining began from there. They said that the tasks were too difficult when it fact these tasks were items that are part of their job and they should be completing. There was one lady who is in her 40's who acted extremely immature about the whole game. She said "Well I do these things everyday why should I have to do them." and I responded "This game should be easy for you then." The rest of the day she complained and acted immature about the situation. She ended up getting the first BINGO after 3 hours of posting the cards. The game isn't about how fast you can finish it but working as a team and helping the store out. There was another employee who came up to me and said "Do I have to play? Will I get written up if I don't?" I told him "No, but if you want to be apart of a team I suggest playing and these are easy duties you should be doing on a daily basis." It made me upset that employees didn't see how much time and work I put into the game and unforutnely now I see them as lazy and immature humans. Lastly, today I looked over my 90 day review which is like 20 days overdue. My boss allowed me to look it over before she reviews it with me on Friday. I was shocked to see the scores she gave me. The review is based on a 3 point scale for each item with 3 being the best and 1 the worst. I didn't receive any 1's but more than half items I received 2's and only two items I received 3's on. The one that I was most surprised on was dress code I got a 2 on. Seriously? I don't have to wear a uniform like all other employees and the manager and I are the only ones who have to dress up and wear business attire. I make sure every day I look very nice and I look put together with my hair and makeup. My boss on the other hand looks like a mess and here I only get a 2? I can't wait to question her on that on Friday and see what her response is.


TO BE CONTINUED....